FINDING YOUR TRUE INNER HEALING

most of us grieve for many thing that has happened to us through out our life,we grieve and mourn in our sorrows for our lost once ,for the thing that has gone wrong in our life.am know different from anybody out there in less than month i have lost two dear people in my life.there death hit me so much i though to my self it is not happening to me.i need to find closure with every thing happening around me.i kept asking my self how and why this keep happening to us;to and u and every one out there who for some reason has so much pain and bitterness at heart.if u begin to think of Ur childhood memories and promises u make to Ur self and then u begin to wounder how many of those promise u have accomplish in life u see difference in between the life u had and the one u have now.u think of the image u were and the one u have now,then you can begin to  ask yourself these questions.
WHAT IS MY PURPOSE FOR LIFE.
HOW DO I OVERCOME MY FEARS AND ANGY FOR LIFE 
HOW DO I LEARN TO KNOW MY SELF
you can begin to let out your blame and accept change for a start.promising to commit to a new u,a better u,the need to be ambitious about positive thing in your life,opening old and broken hearts,talking about it helps to heal these wound in a way.we are not happy because we are not giving and not because we do not have to give.each day we learn new things,if we could find something to be grateful for or happy with then we or you will understand life better cause this earth is a place of trials and tribulation we are all on a training field learning to survive for our spices.we find our pain and healing here.once u believe and open up and stop blaming others for what they have done and begin to ask yourself what u have done to make thing go this way then alone will u find your true healing.

hello sir,Lynna is the name ,am looking forward to achieve many goal by your side.and so shall it be.i was told u are handling one of my clients i will appreciate it if you draw from it i will take it from where you left .but sir;no but do u have a problem cos.no it my pleasure.excuse me"with a fake smile"she exit the office of the vice.she walked into her office digging up file throwing her with about.patting little cures at herself.when she finally found the said file she sat  for long time with a glazed eyes at the file wondering what to do next.should she let it go it was her first she start a case and not complete it she told her self  but her major problem was how to deal with the case without Ryan and the president of the company getting to know about it.this is risky,the are no loop holes in this case they will know no matter what then she remembered Ryan make mention of knowing the couple that was her only chance.Getty,could u get me Mr or Mrs Kennedy on the line,on a second taught forget it.thank u.i will make it personally.hello ,Lynna on the line please......................................... thank you next week then.she heard a knock on her door,am i interrupting he said before she could ask him in.well i see u are already making yourself busy with me.i came to tell you i just received a call from the Kennedies and i was wondering how they manage to know that i will betaking over from you.could you do me a favor by explaining to me what is happening here.excuse me Ryan you walk to my office with so much rage in your eye demanding for an explanation i don't have and even if i do i wont say a word to you i believe they explain them self to you and if you don't mind i have a lot on my desk may i be excuse thank you what i you ushering me out of your cubicle.and kindly ask Getty to get me a cup of coffee no sugar and it should be creamy. thanks again.and Ryan the door please."she smile"after a long day of hassling and bustling  the day was over it couldn't have gone any better at the end of the day i got what i wanted.one after the other they dis appear from the office.

the office affair (scene one)

It began at the church,when we were singing praises and jumping and glorifying god for his goodness in our life.he kept on looking and staring at me.i kept stealing glances at him through out the service our eye kept  sending out messages the patty smile that kept on crossing my lips.soon the service was over.as my family and i walk to the father he ought-er my step.Ryan.that was his name he was perfect he hair  those blue eyes it feel like the storms in my life are dropout.through out the conversation all i remember the father say is god bless u child.it was a powerful service Lynna and i will be thrilled if u will sing at the next service.dad ,come on it will be an honor.what is it Lynna nothing i will be glad to anything for u.but u keep looking back did u leave something behind no.i was furious and could not explain Ryan hold and hanging one girl kept my blood hot.what ever is destructing u just forget it.dad am not destructed.OK if u say so is just that dad;the seconds counted down to Minuit and at came down to hours and the said day was over.rise and shine it a new beautiful day.good morning,coffee.no thanks,got to run i have a presentation and i need  to nil it.u will u always do.bye dad.the street  were busy as always not a single day has it been  down,fine weather great atmosphere.just a perfect morning.taxi,oxford street thank you.at half past six i was comfortably siting in my office preparing for my presentation.if only i knew who was coming perhaps i would have worn extra cloth and jewelry to please him.hey Getty can i have a cup please no sugar but creamy.thanks.and please prompt me when the meeting is a about to begin.thanks. at exactly eight o cock the board room was set each member it went in my favor after hours and hour of discussion and deliberating  i was ask  by the veep  to come with him to his office to meet the man i was to work with .i walked into the office and there he was so elegant in his suit.hello am i, could hardly draw my hand from his............ etc

self therapy

it one midnight and am still up doing what only god know.i cant sleep the are so many things going on in my mind.i called a friend and told him about what have being happening to me lately.the sleepless nite,how depress i am.she then recommended me to see a psychologist.at first i did not accept the offer then it continue for some day.i decided to go.i  walked into his office and there he was  sitting in his arm chair across the room.the first word he said to me was i have being expecting u i thought u wont make it.it was as if we knew each other then i ask my self which of us need therapy here.i laid in his lazy chair he pulled out his long not and said shall we begin on and please we do not want to be disturbed.why are u having difficult time in sleeping.is it that u ;hold it i came here because i was compelled to .OK let me rephrase it i had no choice my pal wont talk to me so kindly be quite for a second.just do the listening.the is so much going on in my mind and i cant explain what it is.i feel sad and happy most of the time.my relationship status is not clear to me i don't know where i stand.the is so much going on around me i have got family problem ,boy ,work problems i got friends on the other hand i feel each is taken me apart.u know the are days that u think the earth is spinning around u and then if u don't hurry you would be left behind.the best part has not arrive yet the fact that Ur peers are getting married before u .u got no man can be frustrating.u ask Ur self what is  it with me.the best advice i could tell u is if Ur peers are getting marriage before u don't be in a haste.marriage is not a race.take Ur time.when u got know man the are so many that will come Ur way don't be desperate for a man the right one will come when the time is right,just live a chaste life.when u are having problems with Ur partner.i saw u both analyze Ur self and check out Ur mistake to say sorry does not hurt rather it amend things that word is so powerful.and don't take Ur partner ,friends and love once for granted.come to think of it we are our own problems we must find a way of dealing with our insecurity,and checking our emotions.

denial and acceptance

the are times when u think u are on the right path yet u are confronted by the mistakes and the thing s u fear most in ur life and all u want to do is bury your self or disappear from the planet.u want to move on badly u want things to change in your  life ,in your relationship. imagine u on a judgment day standing on the front line and the little kids walk pass u and u ask Ur self how and when did i move from being a baby innocent at that to a girl or a boy then to this stage in life when every thing has become complicated.u lie i bed and u wish u could be there forever and then when u step out every thing is going to be fine ,u never know when will be the last time.u never plan for it.the kisses the creasing one minute u are in that moment the next your not.then u go from being open to pretending.imagination begin to fill the black places in your heart and mind we all face our best friend our only companion when  we hit hard time .we could talk about sex .men talk about it almost every second of the day women never 46 percent of the men just go through the day talking about it. which brings us back to your day friend denial.once u confine in it u will need the sister of denial which is acceptance to make what u want worthy before any one u prefer to  come to denial and acceptance walk hand in hand.

is there a time to discuss marriage

i had a chat with someone and he goes like am dating and we havn't  talk about when we are going to get married so i asked when is the right time to discuss marriage between two people who are dating and are acquainted with each other.the main question we should ask is how do we start the conversation about marriage how to go about it.when is the right time to talk about it,is there a place or time it should be discussed.who should start such discussion is it the man or woman.and what do u talk about when it comes to discussing marriage.

vera dzakwasi has such a cool profile!

vera dzakwasi has such a cool profile!

what about love

what if i took my time to love u,what if i put no one above u.what if i did the things  that really matters to u and what if i run through hoops of desperate people , will  you care if i didn't make it.  have u asked your  partner this questions and your self as  well. have u asked your self if you are in this alone  and are u ready to face thing that may come your way. don't put your self or your  partner in a room and blame one another. for all u need is time to forgive each other.all u need to ask your self is...........

 what about love,what about feeling,what about all the things that makes life worth living for you. 
what about faith,what about trust in a relationship,and ask yourself what about both of you.and think about how to give your love a new beginning and the range that is never ending between u.then u will find an answer to your question think of a way to keep your soul from believing in the memories of how u were both living and calling.keep asking  your self the same question what about love,feeling trust ,hope ,new beginning,faith and all the thing u shared.when u take the relationship to that level,and take the happy time and take the moment of desperation it all comes to the same question what about love?

a bottle of wine

many have come my way,i see lot through peoples eyes.the pain they go through ,one lonely night she walk about the park thinking of her love one,as she take the steps she wondered how lonely she had been all this years.little by little as she walk she ended up  at the beach with a bottle of wine stirring at the waves, loneliness can kill the soul.the next morning was not the same.great amount of beach sand was all over my body and my head ache,early raisers were on thew run along the beach and i could hardly hit my way home i realizes i had a long way home i crab a cab and got home had a shower head towards work,it was my first day and seems  quit nervous i haven't step into the corporate world since he left it as if my whole life went with him my carer everything i was leaving for him but last night  i wept and this morning i see things differently.i worked into this great office and i meet alot of people in the confress area talking under tone.excuses me ladies and gentlemen i would like to thank u all for the great work u did last week i couldnt have done it without u am great ful and for that lunch is on the

hope

through times and tide have i  leaned to live with my heart enclosed in a cave.scared to be unraveled with some mischievous sound  of love in the air,many have i seen and heard.until i saw something that moved me i stand right in front of it and i just can tell  what it  means the feeling, the anxiety,the rush i feel i just could not move away from it. it caught my eye and being, there were words i wanted to say but it keeps dribbling out of my mouth. that moment was very special to me i keep playing it to my self then i asked my self what does it tell  me.what reflection does this image tells me,i have never being interested.but what i can tell is that the is no reason to know more about what u are feeling than to know the  importance of what is at heart.what is right and wrong cant change what u are feeling.that oak tree with that tinny bright light speaks to so many people in the biblical way, the real life situations,relationships and so many more.remember that light will shine at the point when u thinks u have hit the rocks.try to be u and u only.never fear to admit the mistakes u make and smile again for the pain u have being through that tinny light is what u have being seeking for, many have to wait for all this while,some may meet it at their entrance other never sees it that show that our destinies are not determined by our misfortune.